A friend said this to me recently with such conviction it made my heart sink. “I don’t know” is never true, but it is a self-fulfilling prophecy. The more you say it, the more you push the answers away.
If she had said, “I don’t want to know,” “I’m not ready to know,” “I’m afraid to know,” I would have understood. The answers are always inside of us, but sometimes we have to grow into them. Most of the time, though, we just don’t trust ourselves enough.
Instead of living in the knowing, we live in a state of questioning — What is the answer? Where will I find it? Who will tell me? Maybe I need a book, a teacher, or the internet.
And maybe the answer will come from one of those sources. Or maybe it won’t.
Maybe you’ll remind yourself — I know, I know, I know the answer.
And when the time is right, it will float up from the depths of your being, and you’ll say,
“Well, of course I know, the answer was there all along.”
Pear, Apple, and Cranberry Crisp